Introduction
As part of @TimeToChange’s StoryCamp, I am writing about my experiences that might be less understood.
My last blog was about how my mental health affected my university situation. Today’s blog is about how my mental health effects my spiritual health.
Spiritual health is very significant to me as my faith has always been a big part of my life. I was born into a Christian family, and over time, I developed a personal relationship with God.
Disclaimer
Some of the subjects discussed in this blog are sensitive and may distress people. However, I want to end on a positive note because I believe there is always light at the end of the tunnel, especially pertaining to spiritual health.
Delusions
Some people who are diagnosed with psychosis experience religious delusions. I am one of them.
Delusions are defined as fixed, false beliefs that conflict with reality.
These delusions attack my belief system. They cause me to question what I have confidence in, such as the origin of life (which I believe comes from God).
Hallucinations
Hallucinations are defined as the “perception of a nonexistent object or event” and “sensory experiences that are not caused by stimulation of the relevant sensory organs.”
Hallucinations can also cause people to believe that themselves or other people aren’t who they say they are. This can make people feel insecure about their beliefs.
When I was in hospital, I heard auditory hallucinations that made me think my dad was the devil. I was perplexed and petrified at the idea that my own father could be associated with such evil. This affected how I interacted with him and others. It ultimately impacted my relationship with God and skewed my view of my religion.
Faith Tested
When someone is recovering from psychosis or any other mental health problem, their faith in what they hold dear may be tested. My faith was tested countless times when my perception and cognition adversely affected my belief in God and my belief in myself. Sometimes it was because of vivid nightmares, racing thoughts, or something that occurred during the day that triggered my psychosis.
I developed grounding techniques that could help me stay rooted in what I believe and love. I would quote my favourite Bible verses or say a positive affirmation.
One of my favourite verses is:
Psalm 23:4 – Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
This was a great soothing technique for me as it reminded me that’s God comforts me in my darkest moments and I don’t need to fear anything.
Holistic approach
From my experiences and knowledge, I believe that mental health and spiritual health are inextricably linked. Hence, a holistic approach to recovery is the best approach. It covers all aspects of a person’s wellbeing (mental, spiritual, physical, emotional) and helps improve our quality of life.
Ever since I took a holistic approach to my recovery, I noticed significant improvements. I am not where I was before. I’m able to distinguish between reality and fiction. Although I sometimes have nightmares, they don’t leave me in despair and feeling hopeless. I can truly say I am pleased with my progress.
Conclusion
If there is anything I want to you to take away from this blog it is this: Keep on going. Don’t give up. Hang in there. One day your mess will become your message.
I didn’t think that from my mental health experiences, I would encourage others and have opportunities to share the lessons I’ve learnt.
Yes, spiritual and mental health is misunderstood. However, you have the choice to learn more about what works for you and you have your life experiences that will aid you to get to the point where you are content with your wellbeing.
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